When it comes down to love, which do you follow.. what your mind is telling you to do, or your heart? As my emotions are literally being pulled back and forth, I question whether or not it is even worth the stress. I always find myself back at this point and have yet to learn from my mistakes. I guess when you continuously put people ahead of yourself, you're bound to get your heart ripped out of you at least once, twice, three and for me... four times.
It takes a toll on one's ego when you can care and love someone so much but don't get the same in return. The daunting questions of: "Why aren't I good enough? or What am I doing wrong?" repeats like a broken record in your head and there is no off button.
Intuition is a bitch when you have a good sense for it.
So where do I go from here? Do I stay in my current situation, or do I flee like I am so used to doing? At the moment, the answer is not clear.. but then again, how do you say goodbye to someone that you have grown to genuinely enjoy having in your life?
Do whatever makes YOU happy. Don't think about past accomplishments or future "can-be's". You're in the now. If you're unhappy, and things only look downhill, jump ship. No use going through even more heartache.
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