Eat, Pray, Love.

Eat, Pray, Love is a novel written by Elizabeth Gilbert that was published in 2006. The book is about her journey through Italy, India and Indonesia after leaving a life of success in America. The LA Times praised the book as, "Gilbert’s journey is full of mystical dreams, visions and uncanny coincidences…Yet for every ounce of self-absorption her classical New-Age journey demands, Gilbert is ready with an equal measure of intelligence, humor and self-deprecation…Gilbert’s wry, unfettered account of her extraordinary journey makes even the most cynical reader dare to dream of someday finding God deep within a meditation cave in India, or perhaps over a transcendent slice of pizza." The book is a great summer read and I suggest reading it if you haven't already.

There is a part in the book while she is studying Italian in Rome where she describes herself. It gives me goosebumps as she describes the way she loves someone because it describes me to a tee! The passage goes like this:

"Moreover, I have boundary issues with men. Or maybe that's not fair to say. To have issues with boundaries, one must have boundaries in the first place, right? But I disappear into the person I love. I am the permeable membrane. If I love you, you can have everything. You can have my time, my devotion, my ass, my money, my family, my dog, my dog's money, my dog's time, everything. If I love you, I will carry for you all your pain, I will assume for you all your debts (in every definition of the word), I will protect you from your own insecurity, I will project upon you all sorts of good qualities that you have never actually cultivated in yourself and I will buy Christmas presents for your entire family. I will give you the sun and the rain, and if they are not available, I will give you a sun check and a rain check. I will give you all of this and more, until I get so exhausted and depleted that the only way I can recover my energy is by becoming infatuated with someone else.

Sad, I know, but true, and until I find the one who will love me unconditionally as much as I love them, the curse will ensue.